My siblings and I are together for a week. It’s a great big mix of fun and confusion. It’s as if we’re back at the dining room table in our childhood home, resuming the roles we played as children. Unresolved family issues simmer just below the laughter, ready to take center stage when the joking subsides.
I have always felt like the black sheep with my siblings but during this trip, I’ve learned that we each, in our own way, feel like “the odd one out.”
It’s not easy to come together as adults and deal with emotions that accompany diseases, aging or family caregiving. For many of us, navigating the rough waters of our childhood was challenging enough. I’ve worked through a lot of my childhood trauma, but still find it difficult to hold on to this new-found strength when in the company of my family of origin.
Our families are the first hierarchical institution we experience, the place where we feel most connected, but sometimes also where we feel most limited. Think about dinner times—where you sat and how you interacted with your family. That scene is recreated when we come together as adults to deal with heavy-duty life issues, oftentimes without the benefit of training. We simply use the limited skills we gained as children and clumsily apply them to adult situations.
I have leaned on the SANE Method™ once again, feeling supported by asking a friend to lunch, feeling appreciated by making time for walks in the woods, letting go of guilt by reminding myself that I’m doing enough, and feeling energized through getting enough rest. We can’t always have easy times with our families of origin, but we can have sanity, and that is in your hands.